Fri Nov 21, 2014, 10:48 PM
Devin is 20 today. Him and his totally nice jawline.
So anyway, that may not seem important, but it is because it pertains to a project I've been working on for a month now for his birthday, which I'm still not done with.
But that's okay, you all will see in due time, I promise.
IT'S GONNA BE HUGE. LIKE CRAZY HUGE. VERY IMPORTANT. BECAUSE IT COULD MEAN A NEW KIND OF COMMISSION IF PEOPLE LIKE IT.
so yeah, know that im absent right now, but not for long.
Also, it's end of semester, so college is kicking my ass too.
Being a student is hard.
Sat Nov 1, 2014, 11:48 PM
Alright, so the winner of the Plague Doctor Werefuu iiiiisssssss....
Congratulations on your new free Werefuu~ When you're ready, send me a note and I'll send you the unwatermarked ref image of your new Werefuu. c:
Thanks for participating, everyone! ;v;
Fri Oct 31, 2014, 8:49 PM
Wed Oct 29, 2014, 8:46 PM
I have some good news for those of you with points!: I have a habit of giving away all of my points since I usually don't need them, but I wanna change my username on wereciervo, so I kinda want some. ;-;
But that means I will be taking little commissions for points! ;v; I need about 396 points for a premie, so I'm gonna briefly open up a few slots for 50x50 pixel icon commissions!
According to my website, when converted from money, they're normally 160 points, but I'm gonna drop them down to 100 points. ;v;
SO YEP, 4 SLOTS:
DO NOT GIFT ME POINTS, OR I WILL HAVE TO THROW THEM BACK AT YOU, NO.
Grab them before they gooooo~ ;v;/
Mon Oct 27, 2014, 2:36 PM
In the recent poll I did, I was excited to do some Halloween art trades with everyone, but the Werefuus won by a mile. xD
So, since you guys liked them so much, I'm providing 3 regular Werefuu adopts, and also doing an auction for a Rarefuu~
The Rarefuu will be designed AND uploaded first, and the auction will continue on until November 1st perhaps~ Because it's a Rarefuu, it'll start out more expensive, but trust me, the Rarefuu's hardly have anything of their appearance from the price sheet, so don't worry, it is a rare and unique baby that no one else will be able to have~
And if I'm feeling like I have enough time, I'll make 2 Rarefuus <33 I have a few ideas for some, especially Halloween ones, so it's possible. <3
Back to the normal Werefuu adopts, though: 2 will be regular auctions, (cheaper starting price than the Rarefuu obviously), but the remaining 1 will be a raffle Werefuu!
So here's how it's going to work: As soon as I'm done designing the Rarefuu, I'm going to upload it so that the auction can begin, and that will be the FIRST Halloween Werefuu. Werefuu number 2 will be the raffle Werefuu and will be uploaded after the Rarefuu so that I can start collecting names! The winner will be chosen from a random generator on November 1st, which is when the Rarefuu auction will end as well.
The remaining 2 normal Halloween Werefuu adopts will be uploaded together and will both be auctions that will end on Halloween night, October 31st!
For those of you that would still like an art trade with me, please give me some time, I will try and make it up to you by doing an art trade with you still, but I might need a little more time since I'll be busy with college AND Werefuus now. ><
Thanks for reading~ <33 c:
Thu Oct 23, 2014, 1:07 PM
I wanted to let you all know that my surgery went great; no complications or anything! And despite my nervousness, it doesn't feel as bad as I thought. xD Of course, I have pain meds in me, but still;;;;
When I feel a little better in the next few days, I wanna do something for you guys for Halloween! I don't have a whole lot of ideas at the moment since my head is a little foggy, but I wanna hear from you guys what you want!
Just leave a comment telling me what you would like to get as a gift from me for Halloween, and I'll see what I can do. c:
I love you all, lovelies~
Wed Oct 15, 2014, 1:00 PM
I apologize for my 1 month+ absence, I will be back soon I hope. I've not been doing much, mostly college work and I haven't been able to work on art because of it, (or at least not much of it), so I have some pieces to show you all, but not enough to show you all yet.
During this time, I have not been able to get my tonsils out, I got the actinomyces one last time before I was able to, so my surgery has been pushed to the 23rd of this month.
Commissions are not being accepted at this time, I'm afraid. I don't know when they will be open again, but I was slow with doing just two, and with all of my college assignments, I'm afraid the time I'm going to be able to do them will be less and less. Please be patient and I will let everyone know through a journal entry when they will be opened again.
I also apologize to those I have worried, (namely Shincovi, who has bombarded me sweetly with several comments on my page, I love you bbydoll <33), I obviously have not been here to update you and I never meant to take such a long time to get back, but I am trying very hard to get back to right and finish my work early so I can return to you all.
Thank you for reading, and I apologize again. I will come back to you all shortly.
Sun Sep 14, 2014, 12:29 AM
I give you guys so many updates about it, it's a wonder you don't know my personal information, like my blood type or my SS number, ugh.
Anyway, my tonsillectomy has been moved to the 25th of this month, so that's two surgeries in one month. I have one in two days and then another almost immediately after I'm done recovering from the first one. Unfortunately, this means I won't be able to get to art in the next couple of weeks, and I wasn't able to get to them recently because college has suddenly been really wearing me down.
Which leads me to a relatively new development in that I am a bad luck magnet.
I have been known to not really believe in that bullshit, but I honestly feel like some higher being has really had it out for me recently. A lot of dumb stuff has been happening to me, and on top of college wearing me down and my surgeries, it's not been that great for me. My tonsillitis doesn't seem to be getting better, and my teeth are very sore now from my wisdom teeth, and to add to my oral injuries, I have a giant canker sore on the inside of my lip which prevents me from eating anything but soft, mild foods.
And more overwhelming news, I've recently acquired a puppy.
His name is Luke, he's a lab-maltese mix, and he's 8 weeks old. And we just got him this morning, so he's not even been with us a day. He's quite the handful already.
I'm not ready for a dog, but my parents got him on a whim this morning, (which I think is a bad idea, but they said they're gonna stick with it, so okay), and I really like him. ;-; He's really sweet and cute, but he just adds to my stress list, and as I'm writing this, he is pulling on my pant leg. :'I <333
Anyway, all this overwhelming stress has led me to suddenly become very emotional and panicky and nervous, (hence my most recent poll), and has also led me to just start crying uncontrollably. I'm talking heavy sobbing, gross snot, ugly crying face kind of crying. It's pretty bad.
So I'm very unhappy lately, and while I'm hoping all of it ends by the time these surgeries are over, I still feel really uneasy. So please be aware that this may also affect art output.
Thanks for your patience, I really appreciate it.
P.S. I should probably start calling myself Neb or Nebby or Bae before my new watchers get confused.
Sat Sep 6, 2014, 1:52 PM
Okay, so I'm slowly but surely getting through the VERY FEW commissions I have, but I do have tons and tons of little doodles for you guys as well as some shit I've been experimenting with and also some adoptable designs I need to finish.
So while that itself isn't too important, I put up this journal to list just a few updates that have happened recently.
Yesterday, I went to an oral surgeon's office as well as my local ENT to discuss surgeries that are now required that I have.
Recently, my teeth have been very sore, and while I knew that my upper wisdom teeth were coming in, I couldn't feel my lower ones. I went to visit the oral surgeon yesterday and had an x-ray done, and basically, my lower wisdom teeth are impacted, and LITERALLY HORIZONTAL. Meaning they're not going through the surface of my gums but staying below, and actually pushing my lower teeth together very hard, and causing my teeth to ache. I've set up the surgery to remove my wisdom teeth on September the 16th, so hopefully no more pain or anything, but this might be bad for my art for a while.
Also, as of yesterday, I am inflicted with tonsillitis, which is definitely not as bad as the rare actinomyces I have, but it just proves how bad my tonsils really are. I should be getting the surgery to remove them sometime in October or November, but that will depend on when my antibiotics for my wisdom teeth end, as apparently you bleed a lot more after having antibiotics in your system.
The surgery for my tonsils sounds scary, since they are literally going to laser out my tonsils, but is apparently less painful than the other option, which would just be cutting them out. Both surgeries will take no more than maybe 15-20 minutes to finish, but I'll be recovering from both for quite a while afterwards. Apparently, the older you get, the more painful these surgeries are.
Guess who JUST TURNED 21.
So with that said, I'll try and crack down on uploading what I want to upload before my surgery on the 16th, and hopefully everyone will be happy with me, ughhhh.
Sorry for falling off the face of the earth there for a while, college has been kicking my ass.
Tue Sep 2, 2014, 2:43 PM
I have sort of made myself scarce on here, and I feel bad about it because I have not really been working on commissions recently, but my own projects, that I have taken care not to upload here, or anywhere else really. I may upload them later if I remember to.
I am working on commissions now, though, and I'm sort of almost done with them. Just need to line and color them, which won't take too long.
I'm not really in a great mood lately, though. I think part of it is just not really wanting to talk to people lately, but also feeling really conflicted because I'm lonely, and the only friends I have are internet friends.
I'm alone at home a lot, and I have nothing but my drawings to keep me company anymore. I feel kind of...weirdly neutral about being alone now. I'm okay with it, but I'm not at the same time. I don't know.
I'm almost done working on one commission, then it's onto finishing the rest of the other one. Sorry for the lateness, commissioners.
Please be patient, though. I will work when I am comfortable.
Sun Aug 17, 2014, 4:32 PM
Wow, summer's over already. I feel really unaccomplished.
Anyway, basically wanted to say that my college classes start tomorrow. Due to idiot people, my original classes I had signed up for about a month ago were dropped, and I had to re-register for them just a couple of days ago. So because I lost all of them, I only got 3 classes out of the original 5. All online courses again, ironically.
I've been stuck in an art block, so I'm really sorry about my slump/absence recently. You all might wanna get used to it since I will be busy with college though. Therefore, while I am still working on commissions, they're just going...much slower. :c I will finish them soon, I hope, I can't give a clear date, but if you're nervous, you can ask for progress images, or take a look at my "Quests" section on my page. That'll tell you roughly where I am in your commission.
For those of you still enjoying the summer days: Enjoy them while they last! For those in school now: Hope you do well in class, and that you're having a good time. uvu
Fri Aug 8, 2014, 5:46 PM
Gonna open commissions to raise money to get books for college, because lord knows that shit's expensive as hell. :c
I need to make new examples too, ugh. ;-;
Anyway, here's what's open!
$10 journal commissions! Simple animations are allowed, (such as blinking), but complex animated backgrounds, left/center align, or more than 2 characters are not allowed this time around. Sorry!
$5 journal/page dolls!
$8 pixel art! (made to fit your page width)
$12 original monster designs! (I'll need the "creature mix" you want as well as colors you're looking for)
If you guys want commissions, you can comment here or note me! I make a list and go in order no matter what type of commission it is, so some might take longer than others depending on the commission!
Just wanted to let everyone know. Thanks for reading! <333
Thu Aug 7, 2014, 3:37 PM
When I was much younger, my cousin Hemingwayy and I used to be avid deviantART visitors. We were the young kind of kids that spent all night watching anime and writing fanfiction and RPs and drawing characters, (or trying to), and we pulled a lot of our influence from other people, namely those on deviantART. Obviously, we didn't hold a candle to those people, but it was always nice just searching for the artwork and finding new pieces to stare at since we always longed to be able to draw like that.
As a person, I was shy and soft-spoken for most of my life, and was considered to be a loner a lot for doing nothing but drawing. But when I was drawing, I felt so much more than just a girl who sat at the back of the class, I didn't feel lonely. I didn't feel like I had no friends, because as sad as it sounds, I felt like my drawings and characters were my friends. They were the people I could count on and rely on when I felt bad, and when I felt like I didn't have anyone to talk to, I'd draw, and I'd feel all that sadness wash away as the pencil hit the paper.
When my shyness and quiet exterior finally cracked and broke in high school, I felt more open, and more eager to make friends. I felt like I needed to make friends. I'd never forget my characters, (I still haven't!), but I needed to make memories for myself to look back on other than just drawing. And when I did, I began to see more inspirations for my art, and I started to come up with more ideas to try and sketch out. And when people seemed to enjoy these creations, I felt like maybe I was ready to show people "my friends," both the real ones and the artistic media ones.
When I was in middle school, I joined, and attempted to put my work out there, (with ZERO success), and soon deleted my account afterward. After trying again about a year later, I never logged in again, and I forgot the account password, and never went back.
I started Flipnote Hatena around that time, and I guess that's where the name "Rev" really stuck. I met the people who would soon be a part of my life here on dA as well! (cough, Shincovi,coyotesoot,LostBeat,Acer0, and many others) <33
When it was time to leave Flipnote for a better place, I made a new account here under the same name as my Flipnote username, and was only able to upload traditional pieces, much to my dismay.
At that point, I was just looking at all the great art my friends posted that really inspired me. Like theeeesssee~
As soon as I got a tablet, though, the art really began to excite me and make me a lot happier. I tried so hard to be like everyone else with my art, a desire I'm guilty of doing from time to time still, but when I wound up with the inability and determination to do so, I felt more and more unable to deliver on it. I continued trying, but in small steps.
This was my first official drawing on my tablet, which I hate now, ew:
I knew nothing about how a good artist becomes good. And some part of me may not ever, but after a while of being submerged in dA and really getting to know people like Shincovi and coyotesoot, and even meeting new people like Kiibie, Keesness, and HarmonyDissonance did I really begin to understand that I didn't really have to force myself to become good just so I wasn't left in the dust. I had to learn that I needed to practice at my own pace, and that I had to understand that my art is mine and mine alone, and I am not reliant on others to grow and develop.
But that didn't mean that I still wouldn't try to let up on improving.
I began accepting commissions, and I felt myself actually becoming better with things that I wasn't good with before.
Take these two images. The first is my VERY first
I also started becoming more involved with designs and colors. Colors have always been amazing to me, because there are so many and there are so many ways to combine them. And then there are so many different designs to be made with all those combinations. And part of me has this unrealistic dream to find and create all these new designs and creatures just to show everyone how much I LOVE to find all those combos.
I'm not a popular artist. I don't have thousands of watchers, or an original species that people are willing to die for, or commissions that are full all the time and in high demand. I can't draw realistically, or paint digitally. People don't flock to me as they do for others, and I'm not well known at all. But I am grateful for all the watchers I do have, and all the people that are willing to spend their hard-earned money on me and my art, and all the compliments and feedback I receive. I'm not the best, but I am getting better. I've come a long way. And I want to keep going, and keep improving.
I want to remake this drawing, my first "most popular deviation," after I have learned enough to really revisit it:
I really didn't mean to make this so long, but I did want to convey just how much this place has meant in terms of learning and growing as an individual.
Thank you all, both the good and the bad.
Mon Jul 21, 2014, 6:55 PM
Working on some old characters and updating them a bit! I'll try to do this for new characters too. c:
Rev is probably getting the biggest update, and also I'm unloading her ENTIRE back story in her ref, (if I can fit it, hhhh), because I know I'll never make it into a comic like I wanted to originally. unu
Her back story ties in with Cross's, Shiro's, Elliot's, and a few other OC's too, since they're all in the same world.
Also, Nex Demons are going to be updated because while I enjoy the whole "stitched mouth" thing, the rest of the body isn't too original since they were pretty much just giant white wolves with stitched mouths, and just--no.
Working hard on Rev's detailed ref, though! If you guys like it, would you like commissions of ref sheets from me? I don't know how much they'd be, it'd obviously depend on how much content would be on it, but..???
Something to think about! Thanks for reading and being patient. uvu <33
Wed Jul 16, 2014, 3:31 PM
OH MY GOD, I HAVE 501 WATCHERS, IM REALLY EXCITED.
Thank you all so much for the support and the watches and favorites, and---JUST THANKS, REALLY. ;-;
I know I can be a handful at times, but I really appreciate all the kindness you all have spared for me, and it makes my life a whole lot easier. ;v; I've gotten so much advice and compliments and constructive criticism from you guys and it's been quite the ride, so thanks for your support! <333
Gosh, I never thought I'd get this far, thanks. ;_; <333
Sun Jul 13, 2014, 12:16 PM
So many of you read my previous journal, and I really wasn't expecting so many people to comment, much less people who had either gone through the same thing or people who were willing to give advice to help, (despite the fact that I had asked for it, I just wasn't expecting it).
I even had people coming to me off of dA to talk about and explain it, and it just made me feel so much better. I even got pictures. People were kind enough to draw me pictures, I just--- I really can't thank you all enough. It made my day and it actually made my eyes water, you guys are sweet as hell.
Honestly, I would have responded to all of you individually, and I might still, but I just wanted to get this out there so people don't have to comment further on that journal, haha. I'm alright now! The panic attacks have subsided for now, and I am now equipped with several ways to rid myself of them should they come on again.
So thank you all so much, I really appreciate all your kind words and support and advice, and I will try and use your suggestions to the best of my ability. It might be a bit hard at first because when I get them, logical thinking goes to the wayside and I can't focus on anything even remotely calming, but I will try.
Thank you all again. I'll be alright, I just need to get back into the normal swing of things and try and calm down and stop worrying about things. I haven't been doing a lot of art things recently, or as much as I'd like, so I'll see if maybe that's why they've come on so strong. Commissions first! I only have 2, so I SHOULD NOT HAVE BEEN TAKING THIS LONG FOR THEM, IM SORRY.
Thu Jul 10, 2014, 7:41 PM
That is me right now.
I've only been here for a few days, and I just feel really weird. It's kinda scary, I'm having weird health problems and I don't know what's happening, and I've been too scared to tell anyone or contact anybody. I though about calling a hotline maybe, except I don't think there is a hotline for my weird worries, but like....I'm infamous for worrying and making a big deal about worrying over trivial things, but...
I've also been having a lot of panic attacks. I feel really scared, and I get weird "hot tingles" in my head, and I get weak and my breath gets short and ragged, my hearts beats quickly and hard, almost painfully, and I just....I don't know what's going on, I'm so scared.
I've been pretty busy, though, and haven't been able to hop on dA a lot, and I'm sorry to my commissioners for the lateness. I'll get to them if I can tomorrow.
I could just really use some good advice, because these panic attacks make me feel so hopeless and scared, I cry a lot and it just keeps me really on edge all the time...
I'm trying to forget about my worries, but it's not long before they crawl back like a black fog from the edges of my mind to frighten me again...
Does anyone else have this? What is this?
Thu Jul 3, 2014, 5:19 PM
Let me say in advance that I am a giant dumb.
Therefore, there will be times where I fuck up a lot or get stressed and probably forget vital information/files/etc needed for your commission to work or something.
I am a 20 year old with ZERO life experience and I have no fucking idea what I'm doing 50% of the time, but I will do my best to TRY and get everything right and working as best as I can, even if it means I need to stay up at all hours of the night to make sure something works or something is uploaded correctly, or something.
I say this because I decide shit on a whim, and think "YEAH, THIS WILL WORK WITHOUT ME RESEARCHING OR ANYTHING, LOL." and then when I realize just how wrong and stupid a decision that was, I hate myself for the next week because I'm trying so hard to figure out what to do.
There will be times where I will ask for your help to make sure that certain problems don't arise again. There will be times were I have to experiment with your commission and how it is uploaded or something to make sure that I know how to handle future commissions.
That being said, I simply require your patience and understanding, because I am a human being that has terrible luck and will fuck up A LOT. I don't mean to, but that usually ends up being the inevitable truth.
When you commission me, I want to make sure you are getting your money's worth, even if it requires me to sacrifice some of my time to make sure something is in proper order. I know money is literally the lifeblood of the world, and how precious it can be for many people. I am honored to even be one of the people you decided to spend your valuable currency on, and I do my best to make sure that said currency is not being wasted. I know my artistic skills do not match up to many others, it's not a secret. There will always be people better, and that is something I have accepted and actually enjoy. To see people finding my art good enough to spend money on is better than anything I could have asked for.
I DIDN'T MEAN TO MAKE THIS SO LONG, BUT BASICALLY, SORRY FOR BEING A GIANT STUPID DUMB, PLEASE BE PATIENT WITH ME, AND ALSO I LOVE YOU, THANKS.
- Love the woman who has been ruthlessly searching Google search for answers to all of her problems since she was able to use a computer because she actually does not have any idea what life is.